I know it's hard right now, and we're all struggling mightily to adjust.
I mean, the whole world has changed, perhaps never to return to its previous sense of norms and normalcy. Every move we make is questioned as if it's a step into a terrifying and unknown darkness.
All around us, we feel the wash of impermanence and uncertainty upsetting the applecart, and making us fundamentally doubt the world we thought we lived in.
Every day, we wake up with a sense of dread and irrevocable, almost palpable terror at the feelings of loss and absence where once were fullness and wholeness.
We almost don't know how to act or what to do.
It's as if patterns and ideas we thought would sustain us forever have been suddenly removed, likely never to return, and leaving us casting about for a way back to the world we thought we understood.
The signs are everywhere, calling us to adjust to a new paradigm of uncertainty or to perish in the flames of what once was.
It sort of seems like that classically claustrophobic Twilight Zone episode, where Burgess Meredith loses his reading spectacles, and suddenly he's left all alone in an unnavigable abyss of confusion and regret.
All of are trying like mad to cope with the seismic shift, knowing there can be no turning back, and we'll all have to find a way to make it through this unfamiliar landscape with our minds and bodies intact.
Even at maximum effort, there are still moments where we cannot believe this has really happened, and that our world has been changed forever whether we like it or not.
I rack my brain day and night, attempting some sort of reconciliation with this strange and altered place that I once knew as comforting and safe.
But try as I might, I just can't figure out how in the actual fuck I am supposed to continue to exist in a world without Genesis Breyer P-Orridge -- who passed last weekend after an epic battle with leukemia -- and who lived as true and righteous a revolutionary life as shall ever be lived.
I've spent the last four days working nonstop, and the only answer I could come up with was this.
Genesis Breyer P-Orridge
Museum of Modern Art
New York City, NY USA
01 intro: Humanity Is the Virus
02 Genesis P-Orridge @ MoMA, NYC NY 2.26.2017 EN remix
03 outro: How Far Do You Want to Go?
Total time: 1:06:16
Genesis Breyer P-Orridge - words & visions
audience capture of the event
background constructed of samples from "The Electric Newspaper, vols. 1-3" by Psychic TV
modified, processed & treated by EN, March 2020
357 MB FLAC/March 2020 archive link
I know it isn't easy, but we're all going to have to find a way to keep going without Gen, and their massive and well-worn freak flag flying high above the oppression and disease and savagery these times seem to feature so viciously.
Maybe you can check into what I spent these last days making in the spirit of ultimate, limitless creativity Gen championed, and the wounds and grief will somehow begin to heal.
Maybe they'll even begin to birth a new world -- where the boundaries are formed by love and acceptance, rather than fear and hatred -- that will, with effort and trust, come to be a little more worth living in.--J.
2.22.1950 - 3.14.2020